Did you know that some believe hyacinths stand for peace? A quick Google search told me that the hyacinth is the flower of the sun god, Apollo, who is the god of healing, medicine, archery, light and the sun among other things. In the Christian church, it’s also a symbol of love and happiness.
I’m not a religious person, but god could I use a lot of that right now. Maybe not archery or some of the other things I didn’t mention here, but you get the point. I need peace. I need to heal. I have so much healing to do and I’m not even sure where to start.
When I started slicing this year, I thought that doing so was triumphant. I was allowing myself a platform to get the junk out of my head with occasional humor because that’s how I cope with things. But it feels wrong to slice today when things are so heavy. Until I saw the hyacinth blooming in my flowerbed. It gave me a moment of peace in this season of hurt and chaos. I even got down on my hands and knees to smell its tiny blooms because I love the scent of them so much.
So in the midst of my greatest defeat, I allowed myself a moment of peace. Today was really hard, like really really hard…and my teacher self would say that I did the best I could do with what I have. And that’s going to have to be enough right now as I find more peace.
March Slice of Life Story Challenge
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